I have several blogs at WordPress for a number of purposes, mostly about books and writing. So I get their articles on my reader every morning, but I confess, I almost never read them.
This morning as I communed with my whole grain waffles, I read one, and there was an article about a transgendered little girl that really grabbed my heart. I sent her out waves of loving-kindness, and strength in a world that doesn’t know how to, or might not even want to, love her.
It made me think a lot about the things I worry about: whether I’m meeting my goals, whether I’m making changes in my life the way I want to. And I realize, reading this girl’s story, thinking about the challenges she faces ahead of her, the real threats to her happiness, even her life, and I realize: my problems aren’t really that bad. Of course, my stuff is serious, it’s my stuff and my life, but for the moment none of it is going to threaten my life. When I go for a walk down the street, someone might judge me or tease me for being fat (a fun irony I’ve always appreciated. People judge me for being fat, but they also judge me for doing things that will help me stop being fat. That’s hate logic for you.), but the chances are good they’re not going to jump out of the car and beat me down for it.
I may be taking a voluntary journey to understand who I am and the direction I want to go, but I don’t have to worry about living in a culture that not only doesn’t embrace, but often actively reviles that journey. Living your most authentic life should mean ANY life, as long as it harms no one else. It’s no one else’s business, frankly, and people who rant and rave against certain journeys need to look within at their own suffering and self-hatred, and stop spewing it out on innocent others.
I feel for this little girl, and I wish for her all the happiness and causes of happiness in this life, and the love and strength to face adversity. I hope to hang on to this perspective when my own path seems impossible.